Conquer you Fear!
“What’s the worst and lowest level of misery?” I asked myself, deep down knowing the answer yet gasping a pause , “living your life on someone’s else terms” came the answer. Why do we spend hours in a day trying to impress someone? Or project something we are not? Why do we need to justify ourselves to every person that takes us wrong? To me, this is the not the meaning of life! Yes I’m a victim to society and the projected reality we go through in our day to day lives! Into pressure I’m supposed to buy a Gucci belt although an unbranded leather belt would just be fine, or maybe a Michael Kors watch although a local titan make would still tell me the same time and perhaps last longer for the coming generations to cherish! Why are we so caught up into projections. It’s indeed very pressurising to be real! I can never be real and tell my colleague I’m unable to take a couples holiday with him because my finances are low, I can never post pictures of my sick face on Facebook or probably me eating aalu sabji at home. It’s a world where difficulty , someone not being rich or successful is always looked down upon. People are willing to starve to death and spend fortunes on their appearances even if it means risking their life ! Is it even worth it is my question? All these years I’ve grown up nurturing relations in my life and my belief was the more the communication the better the relation gets. However I’ve come to terms with the fact that certain people in life will never understand your story and no matter how much you communicate you’ll always end up feeling like you’re unheard. Also I’ve matured into realising that justifications for everything Is a waste of time. If people have to misinterpret you , they will do so eitherways. Justifying yourself is only putting them through the bad habit of getting a clarification from your end all the time. If they cared they wouldn’t need any justification in the first place!! In life you meet a lot of people. It’s important to keep the ones that ease you’re pain closer to you.
My new year resolution is to live my life on my terms! No matter how crazy , stupid , selfish or senseless it appears to anybody I will continue to walk my journey on my terms and not make the mistake like the old me and turn around and stop by at every dog that barks at me! I will never reach my destination that way..Losing people has been one of my biggest fears and perhaps through my resolution I will be conquering this fear.
On this note I wish to inspire you with another piece of myself wishing you a happy and self made 2016! Stay true to yourself and earn Guccis and feel good wearing them , not force your spouse or parents to buy them for you just to prove someone something!!:)
Source : The Rainbow Site